I can hardly recall the day that I fell in love with drawing. As I look back, only one moment when I tried to outline the Son GoKu in Dragon Ball on a magnetic sketchpad flashed in my mind.
As parents gave me this novel toy, they should never expect it would become the beginning of my perseverance in drawing. Hading wasted countless paper, pencils and erasers, I still failed to open the door of drawing with a right key. At the age of 17, after directionless drawing for years I went to art training classes and began the "shift" from interest to profession.
The process of "shift" was suffering. According to my teacher, I was a cup of water had been polluted for years, full of bad habits that could never be filtered. Anyway, I finally self-purified to make my self qualified enough entering the oil painting department of an art academy in mainland China. Doing badly in oil painting, I idled my first 2 years disheartenedly.
It was not until one day my video lesson required homework that everything changed. Since I was not good at DV, I decided to make an animation. I spent 2 weeks finishing the animation in an incredibly smooth process. Some certain things had been left in my blood in the past 2 sullen years and they spurted out in this sudden moment, which gave me the power to complete my animation I wanna be. I was so glad to hear applause from my classmates after its play in class.
In my childhood, I told my elders that I dreamed to be a painter, with a blush. In the little town which I spent my childhood, dream was scarce, not to mention such a utopia as being a painter. Therefore, for long I just enjoyed drawing and my own paintings, without attracting anyone’s attention. I drew for myself and pleased myself. This is enough to make me happy for a whole day.
Now my animation pleased not only myself but also the audience. It is an amusement I have been longing for since I was a child.

From then on I began to realize I was able to draw somehow. For the first time I customized several big frames for myself, with the size of 1.2m×1.4m. I preferred the 6:7 proportion because my camera was with 6:7 frame.

Last year I became a professional painter without a hitch after graduation. It was a bounty for me, but I was too humble to bear it. Have I, unbelievably, realized my childhood dream? My elders might have taken it seriously and praised me at times, which made me more embarrassed.

On the journey to my dream, all kinds of things disturbed my sense of direction. The simple self-entertaining game in the past has been becoming increasingly complicated. Entertaining both others and myself is not so simple as before. Maybe it is in this complicated situation that we need to be more introspective. I often search for the meaning of my work, acting as a layman asking myself “What would you like to express through the painting?” It would be the last question I asked in my childhood. This is exactly the difference between today and yesterday. If I could go back to my childhood, I would ask the boy who was always doing little drawing on a small desk in the room corner, “What is going through your mind when you are drawing?” I can never recall what I was thinking in the past when drawing. However, I have always been keeping some habits like conditioned reflex. If I have to pain something spontaneously, I will definitely pain cartoon. It is my nature, though it is despised sometimes. As if cartoon is a sin, as well as a bad habit in teachers’ eye.
I will not waste any time thinking any more whether cartoon is feasible or not. Actually, I have long accepted it as part of my life. What I care about is how to extended the road of cartoon.
The concept of cartoon is increasingly complicated together with my growing. Today, I am telling the stories of adults with cartoons, feeling more or less boyish thus keeping me sober. This feeling once disappeared for a long time, but thanks to the sullen years of lost, it teach me a lesson of appreciating blessings by regaining.

The fight between Ultraman and monsters has seen its day. I am thinking about the sequel to it.